Insight Meditation Says...

"Another thing to remember as you deepen the systematic exploration of your mind in practice is the fact that though the unwholesome qualities of consciouesness appear to be getting stronger, in fact they are not; you are only becoming more aware of them.  As practice deepens, we feel overwhelmed by the multitude of different mental hindrances that arise.  We see restlessness, laziness, anger, doubt, greed, conceit, envy, and all the rest, and it sometimes seems that our mind contains nothing but these afflictive emotions.

A traditional Buddhist analogy describes this phenomenon.  If you have a cloth full of grime and dirt, no particular spot on it stands out.  But as the cloth becomes cleaner, each stain becomes more obvious.  In the same way, as our mind becomes clearer and more lucid in meditation practice, the hindrances show themselves more noticeably.

So keep a balanced perspective as you work with thoughts and emotions in your mind and heart.  It is important to see the hindrances as they arise, and to understand that the clarity to see them comes precisely from the growing purity of your consciousness." (58)

That's right.  It's not a flaw to see, admit to, and try to change your flaws.  It might be painful, it might be confusing, and living in oblivion or delusion is certainly a lot easier - but still.  But still... I really don't know.